Felt this so hard! I'm the opposite of you - I take risks constantly. But they've never paid off, at least not for my writing career, haha! So here I am, doing what you did - pursuing academic jobs, throwing my hat in the ring for 50 jobs that 500 other people are all applying for, ugh.
I'm horrified by what that person did to you, but I also (from afar) see it as the thing that led to the big life change that got you to Full-Time Writer status, no matter the level of "success." Someone once told me that if you're writing for joy, because you love it, it will eventually resonate with the right people. I hope it's true, because I've never loved anything more! The project we did together was the reminder of that and set me on this path back to daily writing, so I have endless gratitude for you!
"You're not here to be loud; you're here to be clear."
This really spoke to me. I'm in a constant state of fear and imposter syndrome. I'm never enough and I manage to talk my way out of things (because I'm that persuasive) that I genuinely want. I, too, want to keep a candle of faith. I hope we can discuss that more in essays/articles to come. Much love to you and yours.X
Felt this so hard! I'm the opposite of you - I take risks constantly. But they've never paid off, at least not for my writing career, haha! So here I am, doing what you did - pursuing academic jobs, throwing my hat in the ring for 50 jobs that 500 other people are all applying for, ugh.
I'm horrified by what that person did to you, but I also (from afar) see it as the thing that led to the big life change that got you to Full-Time Writer status, no matter the level of "success." Someone once told me that if you're writing for joy, because you love it, it will eventually resonate with the right people. I hope it's true, because I've never loved anything more! The project we did together was the reminder of that and set me on this path back to daily writing, so I have endless gratitude for you!
"You're not here to be loud; you're here to be clear."
This really spoke to me. I'm in a constant state of fear and imposter syndrome. I'm never enough and I manage to talk my way out of things (because I'm that persuasive) that I genuinely want. I, too, want to keep a candle of faith. I hope we can discuss that more in essays/articles to come. Much love to you and yours.X
What kind words! Thank you, Yoli, for your insight — these topics will certainly feature in essays to come 🩷